28 February 2010
27 February 2010
Driving back from my niece's 1st birthday party tonight I spent most of my time looking out the window... noticing the way the snow lay on the cliffs on the West Side Highway and across on the cliffs on the side of New Jersey... Driving all the way down to Tribeca from Inwood, hardly making a sound. I couldn't help but think of my days up in Westchester. Sarah Lawrence. Work. That time in my high school years. The sights were just so similar.
While I look back and see that I felt so unsafe in so many ways, there is some sort of comfort that comes with these many memories. I remember listening to a lot of Coldplay and driving... and driving... and thinking and thinking... and just being so confused about so many things in my life, worried about close members of my family, and fighting for my own life on a daily basis. Sometimes I just want to give my life thus far a big shake and wonder where in time I'll end up. Youth and innocence are so profound. I've noticed a loss of it more and more as the days go on...